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2014-03-18

Everything is for the best

there’s some light even in the dark of a night
Well, I sure hope that it is. After a give or take half a year at home and with no other income but unemployment allowance and some of my own saving, I’m more than eager to do anything, but get the hell out of here and actually do something. On the plus side, this long vacation was a useful break after almost 3 years of work work work with only few get-aways for a day or two at the most. On the downside, I’m never comfortable with watching my savings just melt away… Anyway, so far this break was mostly positive, so I’ll just try to keep it that way. So let’s just look for all the positive outcomes of this situation:
* I am full of energy, well rested, and ready to move mountains (though hopefully I don’t have to  or I might end up with some nations angry with me if I move their Alps)
* If all works out as planned, this is going to be my last week at home (a cautious hurray goes here and fingers crossed)
* I’m finally out of the ‘cage’.
What ‘cage’? The ‘cage’ of my own in-box thinking. Since for a couple of years I’ve been thinking about going back to school for my masters degree, and since I wanted to get this degree in a totally different field than my BA, that meant I needed to take some additional courses and only then would be eligible to apply. Problem was that I’d have had to pay both for the courses and for the masters studies. And money is always an issue for me – I’m never easy with parting with greater sums, and I’m even less attracted to the thought of taking a loan. So there you have it – a wish to go back to school and insufficient funds of my own to get me through 3 years at school. Well, after a couple of months at home, with much time spent outdoors and with somehow a much clearer head and brighter perspective, I had this eureka moment – why was I so fixated on getting the masters? I could achieve the very same goal and at much much lesser costs by starting over and getting my BAcc or BAE at college level instead of masters in the same field at pricey university. And so the plan has been hatched: step 1 – get a job, step 2 – back to school.
Making these plans public is like making a promise so I’d not back out at the very last moment. And hopefully principle of men making plans, and gods laughing at them will not be applicable just this once.

2 comments:

  1. Hmz... per sunkus man paskutinis pusmetinis buvo, nepasiveju su savo virtualiais draugais. Tai iš paskutinio darbo tu išėjai, nors naujo neturėjai? Ir dabar jau kažką susiradai?
    O dėl mokslų, negalvojai free online kursų pasieškoti? Sergio kelis pasiėmęs seka, atlikinėja užduotis. Paskaitos įrašytos, video, viskas yra.

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  2. long story short, tarptautinė įmonė, kur laiminga sau darbavausi buvo parduota, o ją nupirko konkurentai jau lietuviško kapitalo, taip kad teko nenorom slides tept (nors ir šiaip pas tuos naujus savininkus nebūčiaus likus dirbt su jų požiūriu į darbuotojus). Tada įsidarbinau vienoj irgi tarptautinėj įmonėj, kuri lyg ir vardą turi, lyg ir viskas OK, kol... nesusidūriau su jų įmonės vidine kultūra ir bendravimu, o tiksliau visišku miscommunication, baisiausio lygio apkalbomis, siuntinėjimais toliau atviru tekstu ir atsisakymu ką nors daryti, nors tarkim priklausytų pagal pareigas, jei asmuo, kuris kažką prašo atlikti yra to kito žmogaus "priešų" sąraše. Ištvėriau vos kiek daugiau nei keturis mėnesius, o nuo streso net miegot buvau nustojus tokioj atmosferoj padirbus. Taip kad po 3 mėn. susiruošiau išeit, kad ir į niekur, bet mane dar įkalbėjo padirbėt, kol jie susiras kažką vietoj manęs. Dar po pusantro mėnesio, kai kažkaip net nesimatė vadovės pastangų tos pamainos ieškot, o man jau stogas ėmė čiuožt, išėjau į niekur. Tskant finansiškai sėdau ant nulio, bet TAIP palengvėjo, kad sunku ir apsakyt.
    Taip sakant, kiekvienam savo bėdos. Na, bet pagaliau kaip ir dirbu, o ten jau žiūrėsim.

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